S.U

you opened my heart and you closed it back. you're nothing different than the others. THANKS.

officially missing you

listening to some songs really is reminding me of you. it's almost a year past now but everything about you is still growing in my mind. I miss, sharing the same favourite songs with you. i could listen to any songs, from rock to pop to electro to country songs and even to Micheal Buble and had you singing along with me. we could spend a night together by just downloading clips from Youtube and watch them till we fell asleep. I miss, going out to the town to just eat sushi, and buying groceries for our home. I miss hearing you nagging about the prices, and how we had to cut out some from the list to lower down the budget and you'd do anything even spending nearly hours at a station just to make sure you're buying only the ones needed. I just miss having you taking control of everything. I miss travelling with you. going back to Kl from Kuantan and vice versa just to have your works printed out. I didn't mind wasting my whole day just for you, or for your works. I had the best of time going anywhere with you, to Kl, to Taman Negara, to Kota Bharu, to wherever it was. you pushed everything away just to go with me, just to go wherever I wanted to. you're up for anything, you're the best companion ever. I miss you. I still remember you telling me, no one could ever resist you. now I understand why.. you're the best they could ever ask for, and I am really really glad to have been with you even if it was for a short while.

reminiscing the past

those simple words hit so hard,
they turned my whole world upside down,
girl, you caught me completely off guard,
on that night you said to me,
I just don't love you no more

Jonny Craig

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING HOT?

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Another truth

I dreamt about you again last night. weird isn't it? how I wished it was for real. but the only real thing here is my tears roll down whenever I think of you, whenever I am in 'your' mood. it's been months, but I seem like running in a circle, running around you. what have you done to me? what have you given me in the past? whenever I tried hooking up, I failed. cause it's always you who appeared at the end of the winning line. I got to admit, you're the best i have ever had. you are the all time winner. but it's okay.. someone once told me, "If they don't want you anymore there is nothing you could do. let go. let them be happy." and so I did. I let go of you out of my life. it's now my time to let go of myself from yours. it's just another lie when I say I don't love you no more.

John Legend - Everybody knows

Random

it's been ages since I last wrote anything down here. got so many to tell but had no words to express. if you guys are wondering, I've been good. getting better is the exact expression. I was on a long rough road ever since I left Kuantan. it wasn't easy, at first. what would you feel when you know you have lost the only thing you have ever loved, the other half of your heart? no words can describe isn't it. you were a lover, a good friend. got to admit, it's really hard for me to let go of you, cause I don't want to, and cause everything seems to be reminding me of you. every move I make, every single thing I do, every song i listen to, everything. but i am learning, really hard. but no matter what happens, there will always be a part of me that loves you eternally. moving on, I worked my ass out for couple of months to get myself back on track. and I finally stepped my feet on one of the places in my travelling list. it was totally fun that it kind of helping me in taking a step away from the rough past. tomorrow will be the very first time of me working in a coffee shop. I wonder how will it be and honestly it's kinda scaring me out since I don't really know what to expect. but I think it'll be fun.. I mean working around food and drinks hehe. well if any of you guys are free, just come around and drop by yeah?